Only in eachother

can fear reside.
we can only be afraid of ourselves.
we can only be content with ourselves.
we can only be truly happy, when we are
alone.

we know ourselves better than anyone in
the world, we know our feelings, our emotions
our likes, our dislikes, our pet peives and
much more.

please, do not judge what I've already done
do not doubt, do not wallow, do not envy,
what I was then, and what I am now, is completely
different, but WHO I was then, and WHO I am
now never changed.

infinite precautions shed a dim moon
on my hopes, my wishes, my wants, my needs.
and only this, this is what is keeping me
from letting all guards down.

I've never feared what would happen next,
worry? this is relavent, a little too relavent.
and although they might seem similar, they're
much too different.

Please do see my care, my hand, my heart.
Please do not forget my love
do not forget my gifts, not of material
things, but of my soul, my time.

I beg of you to listen, you don't have to respond
I just want you to understand, if that is not possible
I wish for you to absord.

All I want, is for you to be okay.
It's what I pray for every night, it's
what I hope for every morning.

Usually, you can't look at the sun directly
but, I've stared at you long and hard, and
no I have not gone blind, you are still visible
in my eyes, please, don't fade away.

-Alana

Grandaddy, I've cried over your passing
countless amount of times, and as I write
my tears flow like an endless river, you're
terribly missed, I hate to say especially, but
my want for your healthy presence is too
strong for words to explain. Although I do
want you here, where you are, is so much better
than here, in a hospital, suffering, panting,
........dying. You're soul is here by my side,
and your heart, in my hands. I love you, I miss
you. Take care -daddy, and thank you for the many
memories.

=/